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March
31
- Woke earlier then up around 7am. Headachey. 15C in, 1C out. Sunny . . .walked BGdns and the harbour for my coffee. Very warm in the sun. Shopped for a few supplies and then straight home through town. . . TVd the news. Ronnie Corbett has died. . . did bed linen laundry and got it all out on the line in the sun to dry . . . ate stew with four pieces of bread and butter. Bella seemed hungry and ate a reasonable amount of stew and some of her biscuit aswell! . . . napped for just a couple of hours . . comms on the scanner about a woman sat on the cliffs at Berry Head! All soon scaled back when she was talked back from the edge by police. Eventual reports on the local newspaper website weren't even actually sure she was suicidal, and suggested she 'may' have been just sat there listening to music through her headphones and enjoying the view! lol . . brought laundry in and re-made the bed etc. . . TVd . . . ate biscuits, two chicken legs, crisps, bowls of co co pops and a little chocolate. . Bella ate some more stew and biscuit, and all the bones etc from my chicken legs, so ended up eating quite a reasonable amount today. . . to bed around midnight. First signs of the anti depressants 'maybe' actually working today, although nothing like as clearcut as on previous occasions!? With hindsight, maybe I just felt slightly better because of the sun? I'm really not sure what the hell I'm feeling at the moment, apart from pretty nauseas most of the time!
30 - Up around 7:15am. 15C in, 4C out. Sunny spells . . .walked BGdns and down to the harbour. . eventually back up to BGdns to sit in the sun on one of the higher seats not far from the bird-feeder for a while. A little while ago someone had posted a picture of a few of the rats (again) on one of the local facebook pages. I was dismayed to read some of the comments which it resulted in, where people have actually reported them to the council and seemed to want them exterminated, and some even gloating about how they'd killed lots with an airgun in the past etc, etc. Given the rats are in an area of 'natural wilderness' there, and not actually causing any trouble to anyone, I really couldn't understand why people were SO against them. Well - it would appear that because of all the bird food hitting the floor there beneath the feeder, the rats have been VERY successful and have multiplied greatly in very quick time, and even 'I' have to now admit that things DO seem to be getting a bit out of hand with them! Whilst sat there enjoying watching them today, I counted in excess of twenty!! . . spotted another broken/discarded e-cig on the floor near the bin just as I was about to leave the gardens. Salvaged the small, nothing wrong with it ego-t style battery and carried it home to add to my collection . . . phoned up the council about my STILL not replaced broken wheelie bin. 'It should have been delivered by now' they said. Duh. . . napped . . TVd . . drank a glass of red wine. Cooked and ate a bowl of mince stew with four pieces of bread and butter followed by a little chocolate. .comms on the scanner suggested a substantial search was going on over the Torquay side of the bay. CRTs were combing the beaches, a rib from 'Searcher' was also doing shoreline searches and eventualy the ILB was also tasked to join in. (later local newspaper reports eventually confirmed whoever it was they were looking for, had eventually been found at home, safe and well!) . to bed around midnight. Bella ate pretty much nothing again, despite me tempting her with some defrosted tripe and some of my stew. WHAT a waste again! :o(
29 - Woke earlier (neighbour noise), lay there for a while then up around 7:15am. 15C in, 7C out. Sun and heavy showers again. . .walked Bgdns, the harbour, the seat above the end of the breakwater, back to the harbour and home through town . . . ate tuna and mayo baps with chips . . . napped . . . TVd feeling VERY down. . Bella ate nothing again today (apart from the usual treats) and took a turn for the worse in the evening, throwing up a little around the place and coughing a bit! :o( . . . ate a few chocolate biscuits . . to bed around 12:30am.
28 - Woke earlier then up around 8am. 15C in, 7C out. Sunny to start. . .walked BGdns, the harbour, the seat above the end of the breakwater and back to the harbour to sit under the old fish market roof for my coffee. Busy around the place. .returned to BGdns to sit around some more before heading home . . . ate two tuna, onion and mayo baps with crisps, a banana and a square of chocolate . . . napped. Woke feeling nauseas again. . . TVd . . . ate just a few chocolate biscuits . . . to bed around midnight. Bella ate nothing again today.
27 - Up around 7:15am - BST. 15C in, 4C out. Heavy blustery showers. . . walked BGdns.A handful of ships including MHS Echho were sheltering in the bay. 'Sailing for Jesus' yacht 'Elida' was moored just outside the harbour entrance. Given it's the Easter bank holiday weekend and all, that seems kinda 'appropriate'ish. lol . . on down to the inner harbour to shelter from the passing thundery heavy showers and hail under the old fish market roof . . straight home through town . . . vacuumed . . .TVd . . .drank a glass of red wine. Ate two corned beef, mayo and grated cheese finger rolls with crisps followed by a banana and a little chocolate . . . napped . . . TVd . . .ate biscuits, bowls of rice krispies, a chicken and mushroom pastry slice with crisps and a little chocolate . . .77mph gusts of wind battering the house!! . . to bed after 1am as the latest gale named 'Katie' battered the house. Bella ate a good amount today. . . woke around 3am feeling VERY unwell. Eventually ended up in the bathroom throwing-up quite a bit! :o(
26 - Up around 6:45am. 16C in, 9C out. Wind and drizzley rain . . . walked . . . Mum called in with the papers and food donations . . .ate the last of the stew with four pieces of bread and butter . . . napped . . . TVd . . ate a banana, bowls of co-co pops and some chocolate. . to bed around 1am. Bella ate almost nothing again today.
25 - Woke earlier then up around 6:30am. 15C in, 5C out. Sunny. . . walked BGdns and eventually on down to the harbour, out to the breakwater to sit around in the sun for a while before back to the inner harbour to sit and drink my coffee. A day of very nice weather all of a sudden. . back via the store for a few supplies . . . TVd/PCd . . napped . . TVd . . ate chicken drumsticks with crisps and coleslaw followed by biscuits and two buttered hot cross buns. . Bella ate a 'bit' of her own food and all the drumstick bones. . to bed around 1am.
24 - Woke earlier then up around 6:45am feeling a bit nauseas again. 15C in, 7C out. Grey and breezey. . . walked Bgdns, down to the harbour for my coffee and then straight home through town . . .TVd/sat around recovering from the walk for a while . . . PCd a bit of this. . Worthy of note here, that I think my 'body chemistry' has definitely changed somewhat in recent years/with advancing age. I'm having a real hard time with ALL the negative fluoxetine side-effects, much more so than I recall ever having before!! :o( I'm just trying to keep going through the motions, doing nothing more than I absolutely have to and sleeping whenever I feel the need, in the hope that I'll eventually experience the benefits. So far, NOT so good!!! :o( . . .ate stew with four pieces of bread and butter . . . napped . . . TVd . . ate biscuits and bowls of rice krispies. . Bella ate a 'reasonable' bit of her food today . . . to bed around 1:30am.
23 - Up around 6:30am. 14C in, 2C out. Misty sun. . . walked the woods for the first time in a long while, BGdns and then on down to the harbour to sit near the old coastguard station for my coffee. Passed a crane in the car park by the yacht club, presumably there to put all the boats back in the water for the summer season later. Pleasantly warm in the misty sun. Sat there for ages before eventually home through town. . drank half a glass of wine while cooking. Ate a single garlic chicken kiev with chips and buttered mixed veg . . napped for a couple of hours. Woke feeling nauseas again. . . TVd . . . ate bowls of creamy co-co pops and biscuits . . . to bed around 1am. Bella ate nothing again today. :o(
22 - Woken around 5:30am by some weird fog-horn like noise or other coming from somewhere!? Headachey, hot flushes and feeling nauseas!! Really quite unwell for a while. Tried to get back to sleep but couldn't and ended up getting up around 6:30am. 14C in, 4C out. Misty grey. . .definitely an upset stomach. . walked BGdns and eventually on down to the harbour for my coffee, still feeling rather unwell. Straight home through town . . TVd the news for ages, watching the latest terrorist horrors in Brussels. :o( . . did dish washing chores for hours . . . cooked up a large pot of minced beef stew. (I HAD to, before the mince started going off.) By the time the cooking was done, I was feeling a little better and managed to eat a bowlful. The smell of the cooking appeared to activate Bella's appetite, and she ate a 'reasonable' amount of her own food too . . napped . . . TVd . . . ate stew with crisps followed by two buttered hot cross buns. . . to bed around 1am.
21 - Up around 6:30am again. 14C in, 2C out. Sunny spells. . . walked BGdns. Sat around for a while before heading out to the seat above the end of the breakwater, hoping to catch sight of and film the advertised farewell formation fly past of 5 Royal Navy Sea King MK 4 helicopters. They are soon to be decomissioned, and are apparantly doing a big flypast circuit around the west country, including around Torbay and Berry head on their way to Dartmouth. All the publicity about their route suggested they would be in the bay some time between 10:45 and 11am. Although quite bright, visibility across the bay was rather poor with quite a bit of mist in the air, and it was a real strain to keep a watch out for first sight of them. Eleven o'clock came and went, and I ended up sat back down on the seat up there, convinced that it wasn't happening for some reason. Around ten past eleven I finally spotted them coming into the bay around the Torquay headland. Filmed them through the 'blue mist' as best I could, as they flew low around the coastline of the bay - barely visible against the land. After all that waiting, they literally 'flew past' within a minute, and that was that! My attempts at filming them did NOT go well! They were just too quick, and their formation from my vantage point, was mostly just too spread out to be able to get them all in shot. :o( . . . back to the inner harbour and the seat near the old coastguard station to drink my coffee and sit in the warming sun for quite a long time. Eventually home through town . . . Image of Royal Navy sea king fly past over Brixham's breakwaterImage of Royal Navy Sea King flypastPCd. My footage of the helicopters turned out to be disappointing to say the least. The visibility across the bay was SO poor, I could hardly even make out the helicopters in my footage, even though I HAD succeeded in tracking them for much of their flight around the bay. When they finally did get closer and rapidly fly across the breakwater in front of me, I was (as usual) so intent on trying to get some zoomed-in close ups, what I ended up with was SO shakey as to be useless other than for a still frame or two. With hindsight, I WOULD have been better off heading up to Berry Head. Oh well. Can't win them all. :o( At least I got to see them. All a bit disapointing though. . . cooked and ate two cheeseburgers with coleslaw followed by a couple of mini doughnuts. Bella ate a fair bit of her dry food all of a sudden. She even ate a bit of frozen tripe I quickly grabbed from the freezer when I saw her eating. . . napped . . TVd . . ate bowls of co-co pops, a banana, buttered hot cross buns and a little chocolate . . . to bed around 2am.
20 - Up around 6:30am. 14C in, 4C out. Grey. . . . walked BGdns and sheltered from the unpleasant cold breeze in a gun emplacement again, pointing the camcorder at a couple of passing boats, navy ships in the far distance, etc. . eventually carried on down to the harbour to sit under the old fish market roof for my coffee. . walked out to the seat above the end of the breakwater to sit for a while. Ended up filming bits of a couple of beam trawlers heading out and kicking up some spray. . bought a few supplies in town and then straight home . . . PCd and posted a few pictures to the Brixham Fishing facebook page. . . ate two packs of going cheap/out of ddate miniature sausage rolls with crisps . . . napped . . . TVd . . ate just a couple of Mum donated mini jam doughnuts. . . to bed before 1am. Bella ate a mini sausage roll and perhaps a couple of mouthfulls of her food, but mostly almost nothing again today.
19 - Woke earlier then up around 7:30am feeling tired out. 14C in, 5C out. Grey and breezy. . . walked. Near the old cricket ground estate I discovered a smashed up Blackberry mobile phone. It'd obviously ended up in the road and been run over and destroyed by a vehicle, but the SIM and 2GB Micro SD cards were still both intact. Weird I should find that almost exactly where I found one once before!? Ended up taking the remains of it with me, in the hope I could see if there was anything of value on the memory card which could perhaps help me reunite it with its owner etc. . Still an unpleasantly sharp NE breeze in BGdns saw me take shelter in the usual lower gun emplacement again. Another dog walker ended up in there too, and I had to engage in meaningless conversation which I was SO not in the mood for! . . eventually on down to the harbour to sit under the old fish market roof for my coffee. Forced to have another lengthy meaningless conversation with someone else! Bought milk and then straight home through town . . . Mum called in with food donations, the papers, and a slice of gala pie treat for Bella. Bella not only woofed down the piece of pie, but suddenly went on to eat a load of her dry complete biscuit too!?? . . . had a look at the micro SD card from the phone I'd found. Turned out to have surprisingly very little on it - a bit of music, a snip of video of the sea filmed onboard a boat, etc - nothing to help identify its owner, and probably nothing worth the bother of having back. Ended up doing a post to Facebook's 'Spotted Brixham', in case anywone wanted the cards back. (No one ever responded to the post, so I guess I'll be throwing it away and keeping the SD card) . . ate a piece of gala pie with a large bag of crisps and then a banana . . . slept until before 7pm . . . TVd . . . ate bowls of creamy and sugary rice krispies . . . to bed around 1am.
18 - Up around 6:30am dry mouthed. 14C in, 0C out. Misty sunny. . . walked BGdns, the harbour and home. . .aimlessly sat around feeling fuzzy headed. . ate cold ham, fried egg and chips . . . napped . . . TVd . . Bella suddenly ate a small amount of her complete biscuit this evening, but right after I'd given her her evening dose of tablets!!! . . . ate biscuits, banana, crisps, cold ham, half a chocolate swiss roll, and a little chocolate . . to bed around 1am.
17 - Up around 6:45am. 15C in, 5C out. Sunny. . .the doctor phoned and soon agreed (after the usual humiliating covering their own back conversation) to write out a prescription to put me back on the tablets. :o( . . . walked BGdns and then on down to the harbour to drink my coffee and sit around in the sun and out of the biting wind for a bit. . picked up the fluoxetine prescription from the doctors surgery and then had it filled and paid in the nearby chemist before heading straight home . . . took one of the twice daily 20mg Fluoxetine capsules straight away. Feelings of utter failure and worthlessness complete. . PCd a bit of this with ignored starving Bella motionless on the floor next to me. . . Bella unexpectedly ate a few mouthfulls of her dry complete biscuit . . napped . . TVd . . ate biscuits before eventually managing to muster the energy to cook and eat five sausages and chips. Gave one sausage and a chip or two to Bella which she immediately ate. . . to bed around 1:30am.
16 - Woke earlier then up around 7:45am. 15C in, 7C out. Grey. . . Bella threw up a little (as much as is possible after having not eaten for so long!) in the kitchen an hour or so after having her morning tablets! :o( Hosed tiles and put them out to dry. . . walked BGdns. . . sat around feeling very down until heading straight back home . . . .completed my request form for a new wheelie bin which came in the post yesterday, scanned it in and e-mailed it back to them. They soon replied it was being processed . . . sat around aimless and unable to muster the energy to do anything, wrestling with plenty suicidal ideation. . called the doctors surgery requesting a phone consultation. Despite how I SO hate the prospect, I 'need' to go back on anti depressants. I don't feel I have a choice. I'm lost. I do NOT want to be awake - ever. :o( . .retreated to bed . . . TVd . . . ate a few mushrooms in butter with chopped ham, garlic, grated cheese and a bread roll followed by biscuits. Woefully inadequate amount of food for a day, but absolutely no appetite again . . to bed around 1am. Bella didn't eat anything again today.
15 - Up around 7:15am. 14C in, 4C out. Misty sunny spells between cloud. . .walked BGdns and the harbour . . . ate half the remaining mince stew with four pieces of bread and butter followed by biscuits. Stopped halfway through my meal and gave the other half to Bella mixed with her dry biscuit and some defrosted tripe. She immediately refused to eat it. That was pretty much the last straw for me. I'm done. I've tried everything I reasonably can. My whole life has just become a nonsense of doing nothing but being up-tight, waiting for her meal time in the hope I can encourage her to eat - and then mostly just ending up throwing it all away the next morning after it starts to go off. No more. I've filled her bowl with dry complete, and that's it now. If she doesn't want to eat it, so be it. I'm exhausted. I haven't got it in me to keep fighting for her and trying to figure out what I'm supposed to do. Whatever I do to get her to eat, the next time I do exactly the same, it doesn't work. Its put me totally over the edge. I can't take any more.

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left Bella shut in the kitchen with her untouched food and napped . . . TVd . . . ate creamy co-co pops, some crisps and then two sausages in a buttered bread roll followed by a little chocolate . . . to bed around 1am, leaving Bella in the kitchen!!!!! I can't even bear to be around her right now. :o(
14 - Woke earlier, snoozed on then up around 8:15am. 15C in, 4C out. Grey and breezy. . .walked BGdns quite late in double trousers, layers and hat and fingerless gloves. A really unpleasantly cold easterlyish breeze, also putting a few waves on the waters of the bay. Sheltered in the usual gun emplacement for a while pointing the camcorder at a couple of beam trawlers heading out (not rough enough to make it worthwhile) , before then heading down to the harbour as things slowly brightened to occasional sunny glimpses. Carried on out to the small park just past the breakwater and sat around there for a while longer, keeping an eye out for anything going out, but sadly apart from the pilot boat, nothing was. Back to sit in the sunny spells out of the wind on the banks of seats near the new fish market. Eventually headed home up the many steps and across Furzeham Green. Stopped off at the pet store along the way for a rawhide chewy thing (4.99), a bag of meaty strip treats (4.99) and a couple of blocks of frozen tripe all for Bella! . . . TVd recovering from the walk for a bit. . . ate a microwaved bowl of mince stew with four pieces of bread and butter. Gave half the remaining mince stew to Bella mixed with some of her dry complete food, in the hope that any feelings of sickness from her morning dose of tablets, would by now have left her. Yayyyy - she woofed it 'almost' all down. Ooooh - I wonder if this IS the answer? Time will tell, but I guess I'm going to HAVE to give her her main meal of the day around 2pm from now on - which is pretty much slap bang in the middle of the hours between her two eight o'clockish AM and PM tablet doses. . . PCd a handful of photos to post to Facebook's Brixham Fishing and then PCd a bit of this . . . still all unfinished with loads missed out!!!! . . . TVd . . . ate just a banana and a few bits of chocolate swiss role . . . to bed around 1am.
13 - Woke earlier then up around 7:45am. 15C in, 3C out. Pleasant and sunny again . . .walked BGdns. A very nice hazey sunny day but a cold sharp easterly breeze. Carried on down to the harbour to drink my coffee before ending up walking out to the breakwater beach to sit around some more up on the breakwater before back to the harbour. Eventually home through town . . .drank a glass of red wine while cooking up a pressure cooker full of beef mince and mixed veg stew. . eventually ate a bowlful with four pieces of bread and butter. . . gave Bella a load of the mince stew with some of her biscuit and YAyyyyy - she woofed it all down. That's a proper amount of food for her today at least. Crazy after all these years that I should suddenly start feeding her her main full meal at that time of day, but it's really the only thing I haven't yet tried to overcome this business of her refusing to eat so much of the time. My theory is that maybe it's the tablets which are making her feel a bit sick, and since I always give the evening dose to her an hour before her main evening meal (as per their instructions), that could mean by the time I put her food down, she's feeling quite sick and has no appetite? It really is the ONLY thing I haven't yet tried - so I guess that's what I'm going to be doing for the forseeable future - a 'midday' main meal after our morning walk. We'll see. . . napped . . . TVd . . . ate buttered hot cross buns and bowls of creamy co-co pops. . good grief, Bella even ate just a bit more of her dry food this evening!?? Her bowl is NEVER without 'some' food in it nowadays. . . to bed around 1am.
12 - Up around 7am. 15C in, 2C out. Misty and sunny . . . walked BGdns and soon on down to the harbour. Very calm and pleasant with quite a high tide in. The 'Hartley' boat was upright and happily moored alongside the harbour wall again (as 'usual'), so the floats they added yesterday obviously did the trick. Doesn't appear to be too badly scraped along its side, if at all. Drank my coffee under the old fish market roof but eventually moved to the opposite side of the harbour to a seat near the old coastguard station, to get away from the noise of the roadworks that were going on nearby. The harbourside road is closed to through traffic and work has started to put in a new gas main apparantly. Chaos! . . shopped for a few supplies and then straight home . . ate a packet of going out of date/cheap small sausage rolls followed by a buttered hot cross bun . . the postman delivered the USB 3 SDXC etc memory card reader I ordered the other day . . Mum called to say she WOULD be popping down - slowly. . . Mum called in with the papers and food donations for chats. Bella woofed down the pork pie treat Mum brought for her but didn't touch any of HER food still in her bowl from yesterday. Put it all out for the birds . . . briefly messed with the new memory card reader and happily confirmed it works ok with the SDXC card from my new camcorder . . . PCd just a bit of this - but soon caved in again with things way behind. . .napped until the 7pm alarm, and then had real trouble waking. . TVd feeling empty and 'blah' . . .drank Baileys . . ate a huge amount of biscuits followed by a meat and pastry slice with crisps and coleslaw and a square of chocolate . . fell asleep in the chair and woke and to bed in the early hours. Bella refused her food again this evening.
11 - Up around 7:30am. 14C in, 3C out. Sunny . . . walked BGdns and eventually on down to the harbour. Carried on out to the breakwater beach and sat around on the beach on the edge of the breakwater for quite a long while, just enjoying the bit of sun and warmer temperature. Eventually back to the inner harbour. A small inshore fishing vessel type of boat ('Hartley' PZ130) was on its side right by the Golden Hind!!? Weird. It's been happily moored alongside the harbour wall there for ages, but then suddenly ends up all tipped over like that (like happened to the now sunk French trawler in Dartmouth the other day of course!). Something to do with the recent bad weather and or high and low spring tides maybe? . comms on the scanner suggested some 'picket boats' from the Dartmouth naval college were entering the harbour and intending to berth for a while (for lunch).

wandered back around to photo the picket boats. .

'ambushed' one of the navy guys from the picket boats and finally got to ask someone 'in the know' about the term I'd heard used on the radio many times, which I didn't fully understand. That term 'packs' which I gather refers to the personel on the boats etc - but despite askings several people, no one has ever been able to tell me exactly what the actual term means or what it is short for etc. Well, right off the bat, the guy told me what it was. It's SO obvious once you're told. It's actually 'pax' - latin is it - for personel or people. As simple as that. lol

hung around until around 1:30pm just before the low tide. Walked 'the path less travelled'. All the way from the lifeboat slipway, along next to the marina, right round to the inner harbour and then across the harbour and eventually out on the slipway behind the Prince William of Orange statue - all on the muddy harbour floor, and taking photos all along the way for a couple of 'out' and 'back' rather unique Facebook post!!! Yayyy - I thought it should be possible - that's one off my 'bucket list'. lol :o)

just after getting out of the inner harbour mud and back up onto the paths, I realised that a small group of people were putting some big floats on the tipped-over 'Hartley' boat, to right it on the incoming tide, rather than risk it being swamped and sunk. Grabbed a couple of photos before then ending up going back down onto the harbour floor to get a few more from a better angle. lol . . eventually headed back out of the inner harbour in the direction of BGdns, specifically so I could encourage Bella to paddle after her thrown ball on one of the slipways just past the yacht club, to wash off all the toxic grey mud she was covered in from the harbour floor. Carried on up to BGdns to rest for a while before heading straight home. . . at home, the HDMI cable I'd ordered had been left on the doorstep! . . . recovered from the six hour+ walk and then had a quick play with the tablet and the new HDMI cable, displaying the tablet screen on the TV. Seems to work ok-ish. The usual infuriating hickups and suchlike have more to do with my cheap crappy tablet than with the principle of the cable and TV I think! :o( . . PCd for hours, posting pictures from today on a couple of facebook pages etc. Hmmmmm - I wonder - is it possible to do direct links to my Facebook posts from here? Lets have a go. This is a link to my Facebook post about the Royal Naval college picket boats. .This is a link to ONE of my Facebook posts about walking the harbour floor at low tide. (Do these work? It IS an 'open group' I think, so I imagine they should - assuming you already have a Facebook account??) . . . TVd . . .Bella refused to go anywhere near her full bowl of food and didn't eat again today! . . . ate bowls of co-co pops before immediately falling alseep in the chair. Woke and to bed around 2:30am.
10 - Woken by neighbour noise around 7am. 14C in, 4C out. Sunny. . . the bin men came into the garden to collect and empty my near empty wheelie bin again. In so doing, they somehow managed to snap off one of the wheels rendering the thing useless!! I've got the hassle now of trying to arrange to get a new one. :o( . . . oh wow - those three french fishing boats that were seeking shelter in the bay yesterday, ended up getting into trouble in Dartmouth! (BBC Devon News Story)

walked BGdns. Wow, what a stunning day all of a sudden. Still a chilly breeze blowing, from the NE now, but really rather warm and pleasant when out of the breeze in the sun. Carried on down to the inner harbour, walking alongside a swimming seal for much of the way. Only worthy of note because of the light. It was unusually possible to actually see it under the water

A VERY low tide. Walked the harbour floors adjacent to the marina walkway!! . found an unfired 12 guage shotgun shell!?

shopped for a few supplies and then home through town. . . PCd bits and pieces of video and stills for facebook posts for hours . . . TVd . . . ate a pastie and a pastry slice with crisps and coleslaw followed later by a couple of buttered hot cross buns and some chocolate . . .to bed around 1am.
9 - Woke earlier then up around 7:15am. 13C in, 5C out. Windy and grey but mostly not raining . . . walked BGdns in the horrendous gale force winds. Sheltered in the gun emplacement for ages. 80+mph winds!!!! I don't believe I've ever been out in SUCH horribly strong winds.

All the morred boats in the outer harbour were taking a real pounding.

a damaged boat was beached and tied to railings on the old yacht club slipway. A slipped-its-moorings casualty of the storm I presume. 'Whip Sea' - a fibre glass dory type, with the front all now holed and badly smashed up!

carried on down around the harbour and ultimately on out to the small park area just past and overlooking the breakwater. Back to sit by the old coastguard station for a while before eventually all the way back to BGdns. Wow - walking into the face of the wind like that, in certain exposed parts, the gusts of wind were SO strong, it was impossible to carry on and I was literally stopped in my tracks!!!!! Eventually back up into BGdns and sheltered in the searchlight gun emplacement for a while longer, having a bit of a poke at this and that with the camcorder. Three French fishing boats made their way into the windblown bay. I listened-in to their comms on the scanner. They were looking for shelter from the storm in the harbour, but couldn't raise any of the harbour staff on the radio. Just then a Brixham beam trawler crossed the bay heading for Torquay (I filmed it in the wind of course) and they managed to make contact with it, explaining they were seeking shelter. I 'think' they even made some suggestion that one of the boats had a problem (which 'may' have been a 'bluff' in order to be allowed into the harbour), but the skipper of the beamer told them in no uncertain terms that Brixham was full - no room for them - and Torquay was the same and they were only getting in because they'd booked ahead. With that, the three French boats eventually headed out of the bay back to sea in the atrocious weather. I felt REALLY sorry for them!

. . . home via the store for a few supplies. . . PCd and at length uploaded video of the Lloyd Tyler trawler crossing the bay and the St Ives lifeboat going out, as well as a few stills to the Brixham Fishing facebook page . . . TVd . . . gave Bella a bowlful of complete biscuit together with a very good portion of my mince beef stew which she'd happily eaten yesterday. Today she promptly refused to eat it! :o( . . . ate the last of the stew with four pieces of bread and butter followed by biscuits and chocolate . . . to bed before 2am.
8 - Up around 8am. 13C in, 5C out. Grey and light rain . . . walked BGdns. Eventually headed down towards the harbour.

Managed to retrieve the push bike by the laboratory building at low tide. Left it propped against the bin . .

sat for my coffee under the old fish market roof. Harbour staff were cutting down the old 'gallows' opposite

knocked up yet another e-cig holder from rubber trawl rings. . . PCd a bit. Went online and ordered a 10m 1.4v High Quality MINI HDMI TO STANDARD HDMI Cable Lead C to A Gold 3D HDTV for 8.98 inc. That should enable me to rig up a connection from near my chair to the living-room TV from my tablet, and display the contents of the tablet screen on the main TV at last. Also ordered a NEW USB 3.0 High Speed Single Slot SD SDHC SDXC Multi Memory Card Reader Adapter for 4.19. THAT should enable me to read the new SDXC memory card from my camcorder and manipulate the files without having to use the camcorder and supplied patch lead it came with. Why on earth the makers of that camcorder insisted on making the thing read only like thay have, I can't imagine. I presume the supplied software (which will NOT run on Windows XP!) would have enabled me to do normal moving, copying and deleting, but since I can't run it, having that adapter should enable me to get back to manipulating the files like I always have done with my other camcorder etc, etc. . . . drank wine while preparing a big pressure cooker pot of mince and mixed veg stew. Eventually ate a bowlful with four pieces of bread and butter followed by biscuits . . managed to get Bella to eat something today by mixing a good portion of my beef mince stew with some of her complete. Not a huge amount but better than nothing . . .fell asleep in the chair real early. Woke and to bed before midnight.
7 - Up around 7:15am. 13C in, 1C out. Sunny spells . . . walked BGdns and the harbour. Shopped for a few supplies on the way home through town, including some new chord for my strimmer. . . messed with the strimmer and successfully wound on and fitted the new twin chords. . re-strung one of my guitars, a job I absolutely LOATH doing. As if to absolutely confirm what a bugger it always is for me, one of the plastic pins which holds the ends of the strings in place in the body of the guitar turned out to be stuck fast, and attempts to remove it with a pair of pliers resulted in the pin top snapping off!!!!!! Horribly difficult but I eventually managed to knock the broken end of the pin out from the inside out! Thankfully, although 'slightly' smaller in diameter, I had an old spare to fit back in its place, and at great length, ultimately managed to get the thing all restrung with the new strings . . polished my VERY worn and weatherbeaten combat boots. Don't see them lasting much longer. :o(. . . napped . . . TVd . . ate shredded wheat with a huge amount of sugar, crisps and a little chocolate. Bella ate nothing. . to bed around 2am.
6 - Up around 7am. 14C in, 0C out. Frosty and sunny. . . walked BGdns, down to the harbour for my coffee, out to the seat above the end of the breakwater and eventually home through town. . Popped up Mums with the soap powder I'd bought for her the other day. Coffee and chats briefly . . . TVd . . cooked and ate four chicken drumsticks with four pieces of bread and butter (with the crusts cut off because my teeth can't handle them!!) . Gave all the bones to Bella which she woofed down with quite a bit of her own food . . . napped . . . TVd . . . ate biscuits, several packs of crisps and some chocolate. . Bella refused the whole bowl of food I put down. . to bed gone 2am.
5 - Up at 7:30am. 14C in, 4C out. Grey. . .walked BGdns in hints of drizzle. Evenetually on down to the harbour for my coffee. Stopped in at the sorting office and collected the package I'd missed delivery of yesterday, before then heading straight home. .

other stuff I'd ordered had been left in the recycle bin on the front patio!

TVd/sat around . . . ate a bowl of mince stew. . . napped until 7:30pm . . . TVd . . . ate the last of the stew, biscuits and later a large number of weetabix and a little chocolate . . . to bed around 1am.
4 - Up at 8am. 15C in, 4C out. Sunny. . . walked BGdns and sat around for a long while. Eventually headed down towards the harbour just as a huge storm cloud started to obscure sight of the Torquay side of the bay and heading our way! Walked at speed, constantly looking behind me at the following monstor of a cloud! Reached the shelter of the old fish market roof just in time, with only a few spots of rain damping us a bit before we got there. . sat under cover of the old fish market roof for ages, waiting for the hail and rain to abate. . . Oh wow - heard comms on the scanner that the Fairmile was entering the outer harbourImage of the Fairmile. I'd read on the local newspaper website some time ago that she had been sold to someone, and I imagined I'd never get to see her again. Rescue Motor Launch 497 / Fairmile / Western Lady III - she's had many incarnations over the years and been part of the furniture here in Torbay for a LONG time. For some reason, she holds a special place in many peoples hearts - mine included. Couldn't resist walking around the harbour and out towards the marina to get a (final?) view of her coming in. Stopping off overnight for fuel etc before heading back out to her destination I think. I went on-line and looked things up later. Turns out she's been sold for around 100+K to the National Museum of the Royal Navy in Portsmouth, so hopefully she's going to be in for some major refurbishment/conservation work. Looked to me like she needs it pretty bad! Sadly lots of rotting timber rust and peeling paint in evidence. . . .back at home, the four rechargeable Duracell AAA batteries I'd ordered had been delivered, but I'd also missed a parcel too large for the letterbox and will have to go down to the sorting office tomorrow to pick it up. . .PCd the Fairmile pics and posted to FBk. (A link to my Facebook post about the Fairmile.) . . drank a glass of red wine while cooking up a pressure cooker full of mince and mixed veg stew. Ate a bowlful just before DF arrived for arguments . .spent much of the evening demanding silence while listening-in to comms on the scanner. Fishing vessel Our Olivia Belle had potentially unexploded ordnance onboard and was sat off Berry Head awaiting the arrival of the RNEOD!!!!

at length, it was ultimately determined that the mine posed no danger, and it was brought into the harbour to be lifted off and 'disposed of' somewhere somehow . . . ate biscuits and jaffa cakes . . .to bed around 1am.
3 - Woken by neighbour noise (singing and whistling!) at 7:30am. 14C in, 5C out. Grey. . . walked BGdns. Warship Severn packed away her flags, lifted her anchor and left the bay around 10am whilst I was sat there. . carried on down to the harbour to sit under the old fish market roof for my coffee before eventually back home through town . . .TVd/PCd/sat around, just wasting away another day. Mid afternoon the postman delivered the four pairs of Blue-Castle black combat trousers I'd ordered for 51.52 (which I 'live' in ALL the time and nothing but). . . Bella had a small but 'reasonable' amount of food this evening . . .oven heated and ate a pack of half a dozen or so chicken thighs. Dared to give Bella all the skin and bones and she woofed the lot straight down (on top of the bit of food she'd had earlier) :o) . ate a banana, biscuits, jaffa cakes and a little chocolate. . . to bed around 1am.
2 - Up at 6:30am. 14C in, 4C out. Showers, wind and sunny spells. . . just as I was about to start getting all togged up to go out, Bella had a drink of water and then threw it up on the living room carpet! . . . walked BGdns and pretty soon ended up sheltering from the showers and strong gusts of wind in the lower gun emplacement. HMS Severn is still moored in the bay, and other cargo ships were also heading-in to take shelter from storm 'Jake'. . somewhere around 10am there was a VERY heavy looking sky out to the west and then a flash of lightning and soon after a deafening crack of thunder. That was swiftly followed by a dense band of rain rapidly drifting across the bay, obscuring everything. Wow - I guess you'd call it a 'squall', but I don't think I've ever experienced SUCH a quick change in the conditions. All of a sudden it was blowing an absolute gale, accompanied by rain and hail, and the waters of the bay suddenly turned pretty rough. It was so severe, it genuinely was actually a bit frightening, and I was very glad of the thick concrete walls of the bunker (as were a couple of other dog walkers who ended up joining me in there)! . . very soon after, things quietened back down, although I still managed to video just a bit of a trawler steaming back into the harbour against the wind, making for a handful of neat 'breaking spray' shots. :o) . . eventually carried on down to the inner harbour as things gradually improved to sunny spells. The 'working' harbour was VERY full of boats wisely sheltering. Ended up walking around the harbour and up the steep steps to the high vantage point for a photo or two of them all before then descending back down to sit under the old fish market roof for my coffee. . shopped for a few supplies before heading straight home through town. Dry but feeling very cold. . . dumped an entire bowl of Bella's untouched food out for the well fed gulls. :o( . . PCd and uploaded a couple of snips of video of the trawler in the wind to local facebook pages etc. . whiled away the rest of the afternoon in front of the PC, just waiting for my, between 4 and 5 PM groceries delivery. Frustrating actually. Comms on the scanner and the AIS website suggested another navy ship had entered the bay and they were doing some sea boat excercises, and there was also some sort of aircraft (helicopter?) activity in the vicinity, all of which may well have had me head back out for a look, but for having to wait in for my shopping. :o( I'm TOTALLY unable to 'function' right now. Can't muster the motivation to do ANYTHING. Being out and about and just sitting around here and there is more easily 'managed' than being at home. :o( . . .my groceries finally arrived near 5pm. A wapping 246.37, although most of that was wine and tobacco!

. . .ate the remaining tuna, onion and mayo with chips . . TVd . . . ate bowls of co-co pops and jaffa cakes. . yayy - Bella ate some food tonight. Not much, but some at least. . fell asleep in the chair. Woke and to bed around 2am only to then toss and turn for ages, unable to get back to sleep.
1 - Up at 7:45am. 14C in, 9C out. Wind and rain . . walked BGdns in full weather gear and sheltered in the lower gun emplacement for quite a while, until the rain had mostly stopped. HMS Severn was anchored off the breakwater in the murk. . on down to the harbour to sit under the old fish market roof for ages feeling very down. . bought a big bag of potatoes in the high street to lug all the home . . . PCd the rest of the day away - spending money like it didn't matter. Did a huge online shop (including multiple pouches of unbelieveably expensive tobacco! :o( ) for (free) delivery tomorrow, and then carried on and ordered all manner of batteries and other stuff, including clothes to replace some of the rags (literally!) I keep on wearing. Probably NOT the best thing to do when feeling VERY down. I seemed to end-up beyond caring what money I was spending - and may yet seriously regret my spending spree!! . . . TVd . . . ate two cheeseburgers, a banana and chocolate biscuits . . . to bed around midnight. Day three of Bella refusing her food - although still interested in treats and titbits!? :o(
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