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31 - Up around 7:15am. 16C in 4C out. Mostly sunny. . . walked BGdns and aimlessly sat around for ages feeling rather cold. Very calm waters in the bay. . . did bed linen laundry chores . . ate chicken slice sandwiches with crisps . . napped . . . N called in for chats until gone 10pm . . . ate four pieces of toast and marmalade . . . to bed around 2am.
30 - Up around 7:30am. 16C in 8C out. Sunny. . . messed around on the PC eventually scanning-in the latest prescriptions and then went on line to order Bella's meds as usual. Turned out the wording on the bottom of the prescriptions has been changed to explicitely state that only the vet can upload copies!! Ended up unsure if my order would be fulfilled and had to start phoning the company helpline. Ended up also having to phone the vet and get THEM to e-mail copies too, just to be sure. What an utter load of nonsense they've made all this into now, when it was just so easy before. FFS. . walked. Sat on CCove beach watching the usual two seal for a while before then walking up through what used to be the woods. It remains a thouroughly depressing scene of devastation. Most unpleasant to walk through now. . sat in BGdns for a while before home via the local store . . ate a couple of large german sausage type things with crisps . . napped until 7pm . . . TVd . . . ate chicken slice sandwiches with crisps and bowls of weetabix . . to bed around 2:15am.
29 - Up around 9:45am. (the clocks went back last night so 8:45am) 17C in 14C out. Grey. . . slow persuading myself to have to go out and face it all again. All of a sudden Mum was at the door!! She'd been trying to call, had recieved no answer and was 'concerned' for my welfare!! I'd left the phone unplugged
walked BGdns after midday
and just sheltered in the usual gun emplacement from the cold
northish wind for ages before assuming the higher seat for my
coffee . . . lay down but only managed a snooze for an hour . .
TVd the day off . . ate a tin of tuna with mayo with chips, ice
cream and chocolate biscuits. . to bed whenever.
28 - Up around 8:30am. 17C in 8C out. Sunny. . .real trouble having to force myself to go out again, I SO don't want to have to, and face all the nauseating pandering to the conversations of passers by etc etc . . didn't get out of the house until nearly midday again! Walked bgdns to sit around for ages before straight back home via the local store for milk. . .mowed the lawns . . napped . . . TVd . . ate a pastry slice, crisps, rice krispies and chocolate biscuits. . asleep in the chair until to bed around 4am. Trouble getting back to sleep.
27 - Back up around 8:30am. 17C in 12C out. Mostly grey. . very down. A real struggle to have to leave the house! Took until near midday before I could force myself to do so! Eventually walked BGdns and just sat around there avoiding everyone and feeling oh SO down about all. . straight home . . napped until gone 7pm . . TVd the day off watching nothing . . .ate two burgers, chips and peas followed by kipling slices and chocolate biscuits . . to bed around 2:30am.
26 - Up around 8:30am. 17C in 13C out. grey and damp. . rang the vet to get an appointment to get an 'examination' for new perscriptions and tablets etc. They rang me back before leaving the house saying they had a cancellation for 4pm today! . walked BGdns in a very down 'everyone fuck off' mood. Just sat around for a while before eventually ending up on the higher seat for my coffee. A group of foul mouthed youths assembled nearby and one of them smashed a glass bottle on top of the main control bunker. I shouted out in protest and asked the kid who'd done it to pick it up and put it in the bin which was right nearby. He refused because he said the broken glass could hurt his hands! FFS. . . straight back home via the local store. Found a nylon 'witches hat' laying in the road which I ended up stuffing in a pocket and taking home! . . . did dish washing chores . . walked with Bella across town to the vet and got the new scripts and some tablets etc. Straight back home. Along the way a police car passed me and slowed right down before then pulling up on the pavement in front of me! It gave every impression they were waiting there for me! As I approached, it pulled away and did a slow U turn and then pulled up in a side road opposite so I just carried on my way. During the course of the next five minutes or so it passed by me again going in different directions at least three times or more. Pure coincidence I guess, but sure had me get all paranoid! . . forced down a pepperoni pizza with extra cheese . . N called in for chats until around 9:30pm . . . TVd . . ate ice cream and rice krispies . . asleep in the chair until gone 2:30am before to bed. Trouble getting back to sleep.
25 - Up around 8:15am. 17C in 14C out. Sunny . . . PCd . . .walked BGdns quite late. Sat around taking photos before eventually heading down to the harbour and then out to sit in the usual place on the breakwater to take more photos of the sail ship Tres Hombres leaving the bay under full sail. All of a sudden in the middle of taking the usual photos, I became aware of a guy stood up close to me 'invading my personal space'. He demanded to know what I was doing!!? I thought at first it was maybe someone I've spoken to before and he was just having a joke, so I asked who he was. He then proceeded to tell me it was his daughter that happened to be sat nearby and that I was taking photos of her!!
'Fuck of - just fuck off'!
He kept on saying 'We'll see, we'll see' ?
continued sitting there
taking photos of boats etc until there was nothing left to see
anywhere in the bay . . sat near the old coastguard station for
my coffee before eventually heading home through town . . . PCd
and posted up the sail ship photos . . . TVd . . No appetite -
forced down some ice cream and a box of kipling almond slices
before to bed by 1am. THAT isn't enough food for a day - again!
24 - Up around 8:30am. 17C in 14C out. Grey, damp and windy . . .PCd . . walked BGdns and sat around for a long while, occasionaly sheltering from the showers in the gun emplacement etc. Lots of people all walking about it being half term and all, but it seemed very quiet out on the water with not much going on. Eventually carried on down to the harbour to sit under the roof for my coffee and a £1.90 bag of chips. To many people around to be pleasant. Shopped and home through town in the rain . . . napped until woken by the phone around 6:20pm. . N called in for chats until around 10pm . . drank wine and ate chicken coujons with ketchup, and kipling almond slices followed by rice kripies. . . asleep in the chair until around 4:30am before managing to get to bed.
23 - Up around 9:15am, and only then because of the noise from a road sweeper/vacuum in the street outside. 16C in 13C out. Rain . . PCd all day catching up on posts. . . walked real late in the afternoon and even took my guitar (and torch) with me. Just sat in Bgdns for ages occasionaly making some noise until after dark . . on the way home I passed some 'youths' on push bikes. One of them seemed to inexplicably shine his strong bike light directly in my eyes from the road as they passed by blinding me and then after they had cairried on up the road behind me I heard one of them call out 'John Thomas - pedo'. . WTF?!!!!
sat in front the TV in
total despair wrestling with the strong urge to just end it all -
again. . forced down half an apple pie, bags of crisps, a meat
pastry slice and a box of kipling almond slices . . . asleep in
the chair. Woke and to bed near 4am.
22 - Up around 8am. 15C in 7C out. Sunny spells between storm clouds . . . walked bGdns and hung around for ages taking photos, mostly from the shelter of the gun emplacement because of the wind and occasional bits of rain. Eventually headed on down towards the harbour. A couple of seal were all playing in the waters of the outer harbour giving a show for a small crowd of people, demanding I film for a while. . sat under the old market roof for my coffee. . shopped and hime through town. . . PCd photos and set the seal footage uploading. . TVd . . ate a small pasta bake type meal with four pieces of bread and butter followed by half an apple pie with milk . . PCd more before to bed around 2am.
21 - Gave up trying to sleep and back up around 7am. 17C in 10C out. Blowing a gale . . .walked BGdns and sheltered in the freshly graffittied gun emplacement from the passing showers for a long while, not feeling so good again. Storm 'Brian' - very windy but nowhere near as bad as had been suggested by the forecasts. The waters of the bay were largely just blown flat again. . eventually down to shelter under the old market roof for my coffee. Shopped and headed home via the local store . . napped . . TVd/guitarred . . drank a glass of wine while cooking. Ate chicken slices with roast potatoes, peas, stuffing and gravy followed by Kipling almond slices. . 'just' managed to avoid falling asleep in the chair and to bed around 1:30am.
20 - Back up around 9am. 17C in 13C out. Sunny. . walked bGdns. Filmed the seal. Sat under the roof for my coffee. . home through town . . vacuumed a little
felt weird and utterly
exhausted and just sat in front the TV all evening hardly moving!
. . TVd . . ate sausage rolls, ice cream and chocolate biscuits
before falling asleep in the chair. Didn't wake until around 5am!
Went to bed for a while but couldn't sleep, all coughing and
19 - Up around 7:50am. 17C in 13C out. Grey and damp . . walked BGdns and ended up sitting around and perched on rocks filming the seal again, despite occasional bits of rain!! I WAS trying to stick it out on the precarious cliff vantage point to see the final seal washed off its rock as the tide came in, but after sitting there in the rain for ages, some young woman with a couple of dogs came clambering past to see them and she scared it off the rock while I wasn't filming it! That was bloody irritating. . sat under the old market roof for my coffee before then shopping for reduced stuff and home via the pet store for Bella food supplies in heavy rain and gale . . . PCd posting pictures etc. . The pet store guy delivered the sack of food soon after 5pm . .TVd . . .ate a whole pack of going cheap ham in sandwiches with several bags of crisps followed by a box of kipling almond slices . .woke in the chair in front the TV around 4am! Eventually managed to rouse myself enough to go to bed for a while, but then was all coughing and blowing my nose and couldn't get to sleep until somewhere after 5am!
18 - Up around 8:15am feeling headachey and pretty bad. 17C in 11C out. Grey and damp. . woke at the PC and then given the weather and how lousy and tired I was feeling, decided to skip the walk and just carry on editing the storm Ophelia footage I shot the other day. Pointless really because the storm really was largely a non event in the shelter of the bay. . editing compiling and uploading that, took the WHOLE day!! I started the forteen minute finished clip upload to Facebook around 4pm or earlier. It didn't finish uploading until very nearly midnight!!!!! . . TVd . . ate a box of kipling slices, a couple of bags of crisps and two miniature steak and pastry slices followed by ice cream . .PCd and then to bed around 1:30am.
17 - Up around 8:30am. 17C in 9C out. Mostly Grey . . deleted the shared 'bus' post to avoid any unpleasantness directed at me . . walked BGdns quite late. A strange silvery light under the grey sky and hardly a breath of wind, but plenty of moisture in the air with some early drops of light rain. Spent hours watching and filming three seal on the rocks until the rising tide washed them off. . under the old market roof for my coffee after the rain set in . . shopped and home through town . . PCd and posted pictures etc . . .TVd. Watched most of the show Mum had suggested was on and worth a look. TV presenter Chris Packam talking about his aspergers. What he described all seemed a little too close for comfort. The program left me feeling down and worthless/hopeless. . . ate four burgers in baps and ice cream . . to bed before 1am.
16 - Back up around 9am. 19C in 16C out. Windy and a strange yellowy grey hue to the 'hurricane Ophelia' sky. . walked Bgdns. The waters of the bay were mostly blown flat by the SW wind, but there were a few sheltering ships and one in particular was rolling quite dramatically. Ended up shooting lots of bits of video as we walked down the harbour, out to the small park past the breakwater, up the steps to the high vantage point etc etc. Very uncomfortly windy in parts, but turned into a mostly sunny day nonetheless. Sat briefly under the roof for my coffee, but it wasn't pleasant in the wind and we soon moved on. Shopped and then home through town. . . PCd posting photos to FB. I ran out of steam with that when some moron PMd me about a recent 'bus' photo I'd taken on the harbourside, which allegedly oncidentally included the person and her children. She wanted me to remove the post because I hadn't 'asked her permission'! FFS.
. ate boil in the bag
kippers with chips . . asleep in the chair . . to bed around 2am.
15 - Up around 8:10am. 19C in 13C out. Grey . . PCd . . walked BGdns. Eventually on down to the harbour. Bought a bag of chips and got treated to a double sausage donation for Bella by the owner again! Sat under the old market roof for ages before heading home, feeling tired out again! . . resisted the desire to sleep but ended up just sat there unable to move for ages. THAT is why I normally don't eat during the day anymore. Food seems to just knock me out! . . managed to muster the energy to trim my hair and beard and get clean etc. . TVd feeling down . . ate half a sponge cake followed later by a slurp of wine and buttery boiled potatoes, peas and chopped onion. . asleep in the chair. Woke and to bed getting on for 5am!!
14 - Up around 7:45am. 19C in 14C out.Grey. . .PCd catching up on posting pics and didn't get out of the house until near midday.Walked BGdns and hung around there for ages as usual before heading down to the harbour. Ended up sat in a corner on the harbour steps for my coffee. The weather seemed to brighten considerably and we eventually ended up walking all the way out along to the end of the breakwater
out walking and sitting
around etc for around six hours all told!!! . . PCd . . . TVd . .
. ate a large steak and ale pie with chips, and then ice cream.
Immediately asleep in the chair!! Woke more than once but didn't
manage to wake sufficiently to go to bed until the early hours
13 - Up around 8am. 19C in 15C out. Damp, breezy and grey. . delayed walking and PCd and did dish washing chores while stuff uploaded . . walked BGdns around midday. Eventually on down to teh harbour to sit with my coffee near the old coastguard station. Shopped for tobacco and home through town . . . ate cheese and onion on toast . . napped . . DF called in for chats . . TVd . . ate ice cream and later rice krispies . . asleep in the chair. Woke more than once but couldn't manage to make bed until gone 3am.
12 - Up around 9am. 18C in 12C out. Sunny spells . . walked BGdns. Sat around for quite a while as usual, but got to see and 'just' about film some glimpses of a large pod of dolphin heading out of the bay. Eventually carried on down past the crane lifting more boats out to the inner harbour. Sat near the old coastguard station for my coffee and then ended up spending quite a while filming from different vantage points, a sleeping seal popping up and down in the middle of the harbour. . eventually shopped for a large heavy bag of potatoes before struggling home . . PCd for hours editing the dolphin footage before getting the 3+ hour upload done . . TVd . . ate a box of kipling slices followed later by two burgers with chips and then chocolate biscuits . . asleep in the chair until gone 3am before to bed.
11 - Up at 8:15am. 18C in 13C out. Grey . . walked BGdns and the harbour for my coffee under the roof, feeling very tired. Scored a zip up fleecy lined hoodie in a charity shop for £4. Shopped and straight home through town . . ate a going cheap tuna sandwich with crisps. . PCd editing the seal/boat lifts video from yesterday and eventually got it uploading . . TVd . . ate a pack of kipling slices followed by another roast chicken stuffing potatoes etc dinner and then some ice cream . . to bed before 2am.
10 - Up around 8:30am feeling well iffy again. :o( 18C in 13C out. Mistly grey and damp. .the latest sel watch video had thankfully finished uploading to FB, so I was able to get that posted . .walked BGdns and then on down to the harbour. .boat lift outs and seal gimpses
home via FGn and the pet
store for dog food supplies . . . napped . . TVd the evening off
. . ate an enormous amount of cold chicken with boiled potatoes
followed by ice cream. Asleep in the chair until to bed around 3:30am.
9 - Woke a bit earlier then up around 7:45am. 18C in 13C out. Broken cloud with sunny spells . . walked BGdns and sat around taking photos for ages before heading down towards the harbour. As is my habit, I had a last good look at the outer harbour before turning the corner by the yacht club and heading in, and as luck would have it, spotted the head of a seal popping up nearby, so ended up walking back to see if I could get a shot. That turned into a good twenty minutes of watching and filming as the seal munched its way through a big part of what appeared to be a big conger eel again! . . eventually on in to end up sitting under the old market roof with my coffee etc for ages . . drew some cash out, shopped and home through town . . . PCd for hours . . N called in for coffee and chats. . . TVd . . PCd for hours more and eventually finished editing the lengthy seal watch video and setting it uploading through the night . . ate cold chicken, crisps and four pieces of bread and butter followed by bowls of rice krispies in the early hours before finally to bed.
8 - Up around 8:40am. 18C in 13C out. Improving to sunny but much threatening cloud to the west. . . walked BGdns and eventually the harbour for my coffee. Treated myself to a £1.90 bag of chips again! . . shopped and home through town . . . napped . . . TVd but watching mostly nothing, and even turning it off for quite a while. Seemed to be in a weird mood where I just needed to be very quiet for much of the evening. . . drank wine while cooking up a ready roast of gravy, chicken breasts and sausages with some roast potatoes and peas again. .to bed around 1am.
7 - Up around 8:30am. 18C in 13C out. Damp, breezy and grey. Comms on the radio about a woman sat on the edge of the quarry cliffs at Berry Head. She was eventually talked back and taken away by the police. There do seem to have been a number of such incidents recently. Can't help but wonder if it's the same woman more than once!! So much for mental health services. . PCD . . .walked BGdns quite late, near midday. Sat around in the usual gun emplacement for ages as some light drizzley showers blew through with rainbows etc. Eventually on down to the harbour. Sat down the bottom of the steps at low tide near the old coastguard station for my coffee and cigs before home through town . . PCd posting pictures for hours. . . TVd . Ate tuna, onion and mayo sandwiches with a large bag of crisps followed by a couple of buttered large Mum donated scone things. . . to bed around 1:30am or after.
6 - Back up around 8:30am. 18C in 11C out. Sunny. . .some posts by the local marina indicating the public could meet with a solo transatlantic rower this afternoon, FINALLY enabled me to identify who the rower was I'd filmed training in Torbay back on 17th September. That resulted in me delaying going out and spending the whole morning editing the video and eventually setting the thing uploading for hours . . walked BGdns early afternoon. Eventually headed down around the harbour and on out to sit on the breakwater for a while. On the way back I did even very briefly pop into the marina and exchange just a few words with the rower guy and inform him in person of the existance of the video etc. . . treated myself to chips and sat on the floor under the old market roof to eat them. . eventually straight home through town. PCd and posted the finished uploaded rower video and then a bunch of recent pictures . . N called in for chats until around 10pm . . . drank a little wine and cooked up a ready roast of gravy, chicken breasts and sausages with some roast potatoes and peas. Proper big feast! . . asleep in the chair, woke and to bed around 3am.
5 - Up around 7:45am. 18C in 14C out. Damp and cloud clearing to sunny . . .PCd and posted fishing photos . . walked BGdns quite late morning. A nice day but a bit of a cold bite to the wind. Eventually on down to the harbour to sit under the old market roof for my coffee . . shopped and home through town . . . PCd for an hour or so knocking up a test DVD on the new PC to try in Mum's DVD player. . popped up Mum's to give her the DVD and read some Sis2 bank paperwork she wanted an opinion on. The DVD's appeared to play ok . . . did dish washing chores . . TVd . . ate all the remaining cold chicken with four pieces of bread and butter followed by half an apple pie with milk and then chocolate biscuits. Asleep in the chair until around 3:30am before to bed. Couldn't get back to sleep for ages (5am?) all coughing and spluttering and throwing-up a bit!
4 - Up around 8am. 18C in 10C out. Grey. . .walked BGdns and the harbour, feeling tired. Sat on the bottom of the harbour steps at low tide for my coffee, in order to avoid having to talk to any passers by. Shopped and home through town . . ate a couple of packs of going cheap sandwiches with crisps. . PCd and edited down the Liberty Lass lifting the 5 knot marker buoys and seal footage and eventually managed to get it uploaded to Fb. . . TVd/guitarred . . . ate two quarter pound burgers with buttered potatoes followed by apple pie and then ice cream . . .to bed around 1am.
3 - Woke in the chair in front the TV around 4:30am. . .checked on the STILL running PC amd set a couple more videos uploading to Youtube etc. 18C in 10C out. Clear starry sky. Ended up deciding to just stay up and probably sleep later!! . . walked somewhere near 7am before the sunrise. Reached BGdns just as the sun was emerging from the sea behind Berry Head. Grabbed a couple of photos before very soon hearing and then filming a seal just off the point. . sat around for a while before carrying on down to the harbour. WHAT a stunning morning. Ended up sat near the old coastguard station for my coffee before shopping for a cooked chickemn and home through town. . PCd and 'quickly' edited down this mornings video and eventually set it uploading together with a bunch of photos . . mowed both lawns while the files uploaded and pushed on and trimmed next door's overgrowing hedge along my front fence with the hedge trimmer (god I HATE doing that!) and then even mustered the energy to trim all the overgrowing stuff above and behind the back garden pergola . . TVd . . ate bowls of sugary rice krispies followed by cold chicken, a large bag of potatoes and ice cream . . asleep in the chair until the early hours before to bed.
2 - Up around 7:30am. 18C in 12C out. Mostly cloudy to start. . . set the PC running non-stop uploading videos to Youtube
walked BGdns. Hung around
on the rocks for ages filming the seal and then a bit of 'Liberty
Lass' going round the coast collecting up all the five knot
marker buoys - a sign that summer is over . . . ate slept??
Unfinished because I can't remember.
1 - Up around 8:15am. 19C in 13C out. Grey and damp . . . same old same old. Walked BGdns and then down to under the roof for my coffee and home through town after shopping for anything reduced . . PCd the rest of the day away editing and posting some 'fishing' videos to FB . . TVd . . drank wine. Cooked and ate a chicken stuffing and sausages dinner with roast potatoes and gravy. . asleep in the chair and then to bed around 3am.